The want of you

random thoughts
they come often these days

i sit here wondering
what it would be like to hold you.
to feel you close to me,
your breath, my neck..

what it would be like to love you
and then lose you
to feel that ecstasy
followed by pain

and i wonder sometimes
why i cannot just let things be as they are
for things are as they are meant to be

but I sit and wonder still
and I dream still
overwhelmed by the thought of you
the want of you...